Yet More Decisions

You know, I'm one who likes change. However, the single SOLITARY thing I hate about it is that sometimes the change you want or crave can only come about after making a decision. Sometimes those decisions are easy to make and everyone is on board. Other times the decisions you make could hurt those around you.

I'm at one of the "other times" decisions. Do I sacrifice myself for the "greater good"? Do I suck it up? Or do I do what I need to do? If I do what I need to do, will everything and everyone be okay with my in the long run?

In the previous post, I mentioned the decision had been made for me. I undid that because I thought it was too hasty. This decision is a very large decision that will affect not only me, but my family for the rest of our lives! Yes! It's life changing! something like this can't just be done.

I must do my homework, see if there might be another way that satisfies my need or want for change. I don't want to cause turmoil in my family for years to come. My desire for this change will only be satisfied as a last resort, even if I don't want it to be; I want to do it now!

More Decisions

The decision I was debating in a previous post has been made for me... And I can't say I'm not relieved.

It is actually like taking out the first stitch to unravel. There is lots of unraveling to be done, but thankfully it will be pleasant.

So, can you unravel and start a new project with the unraveled material??

I'm also cutting the string on one project and starting over to start on a better one... But I don't know where to start the new project...

Will the projects fit??

I may start changing a few things on the blog soon...

Decisions Decisions

Oh, I've just been a nut case lately!

I have issues. And I tend to blame people closest to me when it really gets to me... I know it's not right and I hate it, and I know there's no one to blame but myself. I've dragged people here and I hate it.

I hate it most because now that my bad decision making is kicking my behind, I'm just someone I don't know. I'm myself when I hear things that describe the real me; yes, when I'm reminded. So I'm mad that more people don't remind me. Fair?? No, I know it's not.

So I want to undo my bad decisions, but I don't want to hurt people. And if my decisions are undone, then I have to make new decisions and they need to be GREAT decisions in order for my undoings to have been worth it! But who or what's to say that my future decisions will be great? Who's to say that my undoing "bad" decisions is not a bad decision? What if it is?? There wouldn't be any turning back to re-do the original bad decisions... that's kinda scary. Especially when the future holds no promises.

What a vicious cycle! In un-doing bad decisions, I drag people with me!

Holy Moly!

My last post was in July!! I can't believe that! I guess I've just been busy with real estate and kids and BestBuy. Yeah, that nightmare is lingering...

Anyway, I've got a Beth Moore Bible study I'm doing at ASC and I really should be doing that instead of this post--I started a week late and really really need to catch up! I have a new listing (a little more on that later on Agent Ali) and I've been busy with that, as well as some training classes, and working on picking up some new clients!

We have great baby-sitter this semester! She can put the kids to bed for naptime on time, and the kids love her! Daniel daydreams about her and Celeste wants to go over to her house all the time. I guess she wants to return the favor!

Jesus is working a 2nd job to help us make ends meet. He really is the best a girl could possibly ask for. GOD broke the mold when He made my Sweet Pea. I am truly blessed with way more than I deserve with my wonderful husband. I wish he could say the same about me, but I'm working on that!

Anyway, just wanted to let y'all know I'm still here! We're okay and I'll be posting again!

Blog Hop: Recipe >> Homemade Flour Tortillas

YUMMY!

Homemade Flour Tortillas...My family loves these! Give 'em a try and tell me what you think! This recipe has been handed down from generation to generation and I'm sure (I hope) Naomi will someday be cooking these for her family!

Ingredients:
5 C all-purpose flour
1 1/2 tsp salt
1 stp baking powder
3/4 C pre-creamed shortening
1 1/2 C hot water

Directions:
1. Combine flour, salt, baking powder, and shortening in large mixing bowl. I like to combine by hand, but you may prefer to use a pastry cutter. Either way, make sure you get all the big lumps out so you have a crumb-like state.

2. Add 1 cup of water and the additional 1/2 cup as needed. Knead the dough until soft and does not stick to your hand. You want a nice, moist dough. The dough should be cleaned off your hands by the kneading process.

3. Cover the dough with plastic wrap and set aside for 15-20 minutes.

4. Take small pieces of dough and form small "rounds" until all dough is used.


5. Heat griddle on medium heat. P.S. I use a cast iron griddle, and those work best for tortillas.

6. Roll out your tortillas! Lightly flour your "rounds" so they don't stick to your surface or rolling pin. If you roll them too thin, you'll get brittle tortillas; too thick, you'll get biscuit-like tortillas. You'll get it as you go! No worries!


7. Place your tortilla on the griddle and cook for about 30 seconds, or until slightly bubbly, and flip. Cook for about a 45-60 seconds or until there are no translucent spots. Flip once more and cook for about 30-45 seconds.



Makes about 2 dozen tortillas. Enjoy with queso or guacamole! I personally love avocado burritos! :o)

On Her Weeklong Visit

Well, Aunt Flo has made her appearance, once again....

Now that she's made her appearance, I can tell you that I was not so certain she would make her appearance. That's probably another reason why it was so stressful!

It's crazy how it's a relief in more ways than one, even if we all don't like her monthly visits... I feel so much better! Hubby isn't annoying me, the kids are acting up, but I can handle it a lot better, and I just feel sooo muuucchhh better!! I don't like her hanging around, but it'll be okay...

I feel so much better, I even wanted to work out today! But since I was locked out of the garage, where my workout ball is stashed (and has been for sometime), and I spent most of the allotted time to trying to get in, I didn't get to work out. One, I wasn't able to get in; two, the kids were up by then and it's just not fun trying to work out on the workout ball and they think it's fun bouncing on each side of it while mommy is on it trying to build some killer abs!!

But you know what?? I wasn't annoyed!

I feel so much better, I even let the kids play in 3 (I think) day old kiddie pool water (not wade or sit in, that would be gross!) and let them chunk some of their sandturtle sand in it even though it costs way too much to replace.

And you know what?? I wasn't pulling my hair out!

I feel more adequate than I did a week ago...I feel empowered. I feel like I'm up to par today, even in my 2 day old pony tail and too tight short shorts and comfy maternity shirt (remember, Aunt Flo's here!). Not a Not Me Monday today! This is it!

And what's even better, but really not, but it is because I'm not stressing is that I'm not stressing over past due bills...We'll get through this somehow...And I have faith because of a little unexpected phone call I got today...

I think GOD made it so because He knows how stressed we have been about our depleted funds. I feel like I was lead to do something one day I was at a Sonic picking up a couple of medium cherry limeades. Let me tell you the little story...Stick with me okay...

A couple of weeks ago, I offered to grab my officemate a drink from the fridge upstairs. She declined saying she'd just made her daily Sonic stop. she proceeded to tell me they know her by name and they giver her free medium drink coupons for being such a loyal customer and "here's a couple for you!"

How great! I could go to Sonic now and get me something off the dollar menu and get a free drink! I could get something and not be hungry again in an hour with one dollar! Thanks, ann!

then on Saturday I worked all day long and thought I'd use my free coupon and grab something at Sonic. But I asked the only other lady at the office at the time if she wanted something from Sonic. She did...and when she started looking for spare change, I told her it was okay, I had an extra free Q for that.

As I was waiting for my order, I happened to look at a little stack of business cards I now have in my car and thought I'd stick one on the Sonic menu...

Yup, God. He's good.

Three Things You Didn't Know About Me

I'm doing this MckLinky Blog Hop and this is my first time, so I'm trying it out! Each week we have a theme and then all the participating blogs are linked together on one list- that one list is posted and shared on all the participating blogs. So here goes!

1) While it's common knowledge to those around me and those who aren't very quickly learn that my favorite drink is Sprite. It goes great with everything I eat and it's hits the spot when I'm thirsty! I drink it like some drink Dr. Pepper or Diet Coke. I'll drink anything that has Sprite in it, including Cherry Limeades from Sonic, and punch from scratch.

2) I have freakishly long and skinny fingers! Because they are so long, when I stretch my fingers out, they bow slightly. Maybe not slightly--if I lay my hand on a flat surface and stre-e-tch out, only my palm is on the table and not my fingers... Weird, I know. And Naomi inherited my fingers!3) My best feature is my hair. I think this is the first time I've ever admitted that. I've always always received compliments on my hair, but because I have to work so hard to get it to do what I want, I always thanked and thought to myself, yeah, right! But I've learned how to handle my hair with it's crazy wave and all! It takes me only 30 minutes (as opposed to the hour and a half) to fix it, and on lazy days, I stick mousse in it and it's has great curl!

So there you have it! You know 3 more things about me!

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